The roller-coaster nature of my life and my career has taken another downward dip and I find myself searching for the reason for this particular season. Surprisingly for someone who writes a “very public” blog I recently realized that I am not that good at sharing my disappointments with those around me. There is a tendency to feel “invalid” when someone passes on your script, or you don’t get a call back or something just doesn’t turn out how you planned. Feeling invalid is a type of “shame” that can make you hide from the world which is in the simplest sense, a very “silly” yet understandable thing to do.
It’s silly because everybody gets turned down numerous times in their life and it is always better to share your disappointments with friends lest you carry them for too long and they become part of you. So here we go… I am learning to share my disappointments and not be ashamed, to let other people into my life, not just the highs but also the lows.
Recently I had Lucky & Rich in front of an Oscar nominated Director and I was incredibly hopeful that he would become part of our project, but in the end he said no.